back AGAIN

i am sorry for the long MIA.
wouldn't blame if some of you had gone from my blog. =)

will try update more often now.
forgive me for ignoring my writing-self..

just put it this way, I was busy adapting to a different phrase in life-- having another person around to stick through thick and thin. let's just name him Pups.

I just officially got my diving license.

went to Tioman for that during the Merdeka wknd.

the next time i write, most prolly i would include more pictures now that I've Pups that snaps away.

to be continued

dizzy & drowsy now.

listen. ironic. waiting

sometimes..
it's the hardest thing to do..
yet the most peaceful thing to do

to listen and follow what your own heart desires.

it is the least what we could do just to remind ourself that we are alive and not ur average robots who do chores..

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life is ironic.
i was feeding myself with literature/art materials and..
tomorrow, i will be staring at hundreds of psychotic drugs preparing report for my boss.
and i am doing all that wage-less, yes, i am a volunteer.
ermm..cause i like him much..


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waiting is an agony.
my posting letter.............arghhhhhhhhh~~~
it's entering August and yet i am still at home.

depart of something new

i have new things to think about.
lots of it.
the way i should see blogging business.
to take up the habit of back-packing via Lonely Planet ways.
what i should do 10years down the lane
what i can offer to peoples' life.
etc

a friend used to say:

"Life is a bitch obviously. u gotta f*ck it while she is young and hawt"

i finally made sense out of it after 3yrs. (note:bitch and fuck means much more than a bunch of vulgar words literally here)

Singapore trip definitely set me to a different perspective of thoughts.

i love her to bits. every last lick of an ice-cream in summer. despite all the odds, i looked up to her. a woman with much passion for work..she had came far. i am glad we are blood-related

I believe every journey ends off with something and embark with something new and better, always.

a friendship that perhaps might uphold itself few decades down the lane. it is usually too early to assume. in the above picture, i am trying to pout so that my face appears much smaller

I truly has faith that whatever history/background a person might had been through, it is to be proud of and well-respected. a man with history is a man well-molded.

everybody has their own story to tell. life is to be respected.
to live is to be a student forever.

p/s: it's 10min to 4am. i cant sleep. some thoughts are bothering me.
p/p/s: i'll try to write more about my short but nevertheless sweet Singapore trip.

is it ok to cry?!

i am off work..from my part time
while waiting impatiently for my posting..
mixture of anticipation and fear
need to take a break
cant take much longer..
will be off to Singapore next week

i love Atom Boy aka Astro Boy..

things i wanna do before officially start work:
being glutton


so that i can gain enough weight to lose when the "slave period" start


kidnapping him

babies are pure innocent. angelic. harmless. however, too bad, they stay that way for a while. just a while

reviving my childhood memory

i love chibi maruko..i used to come home running from school in Brunei just to catch this..

to write until i drop dead..about anything and everything

i have short memories. i doubt that i have Alzheimer. living in fear that one day the sweetest memories will past me by

to go back to Japan again

been to a few places. but there is nothing like Japan. the skies there just look...better~perhaps the grass is greener on the other side. like a magnet, i am still draw to it.

and visiting the ppl i love so much

things will never be the same. with the Oyama family and ppl i met there.


yes. it is okay to cry. finally.
even over stupid things.
like tears, they are thrown off us.

~What is the source of sadness, but feebleness of the mind? What giveth it power but the want of reason? Rouse thyself to the combat, and she quitteth the field before thou strikest. ~
Akhenaton

tahiti 80

addiction is hard to overcome

syringes. drugs. spaces. love. sex. caffeine. sports. scents of sweats. sneakers. small figurines. footballs. anything.

i have one and only addiction at this moment.
surprisingly it's not caffeine
it's THIS:

tahiti 80- 1000 times (hint: look up for lyrics..mushy fairy tales yet it's love)

it's the only addiction that i did not get sick or bother to overcome
i am like F*ckin crazy of Tahiti80

quest to look for their albums in singapore..

it's the only song i have on my player
and i on my player 12/7

being random (and sick)

terrible headache as i am blabbing away.
dont ask me why i still bother to write. i have no idea.
downed durians and coffee simultaneously yesterday.
but hey, aint complaining..
feeling so dawg-ed..


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i am on Xenical and aspirin right now with coffee...
yeah, that caffeine~~
talking about 4 yrs of drug edu, eh

pic is only for illustration purpose. dont really have a thing for Starbucks. serve me San Frans please

x

i so have a spot for man who smokes
it's wrong i know.
but i am sick right now, alright..
and i am forgiven for having weird likings..


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my tour guide is playing Osama.
spamming my email with his forwarded mails.

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plannin on visiting neighboring country
for few days
before i crash in hospital for work
and for good..

t-shirt sometimes really says the best

x

i miss....
gyoza

and
takoyaki (yes, with octopus!)

most of all this..

these make me wanna fly all the way back to the town and grab it then come back enduring 7hrs of flight..

being sick certainly get u to fantasize the unexpected

talela, love

Taiwan trip has been an eye-opener.

candid-time- somehow i will end up being in the middle. i dont know why or how, but i will always be the middle-man.

sometime being in the middle feels gooooooddd. i get the princess-y kinda feeling. with my court noblemen and judging frm the photo ermm.. a noble-woman w stripped bag, Charmaine.
for once, me n Angeline the princesses. now, bow, u commoner

well, not everytime, but almost, out of 10 photos, 7 of them will b with me being the middle. the other 3 will be either i was by chance at the side, and ppl just grab me in, or i was just a passer-by or someone got sick of being at the side always. so that's how i get to stand at the side for once

note: above all is in no purpose of hurting anyone's feelings. the main purpose is to show off how camwhore i can be when i am with the Queen of camwhore herself. if anyhow ur feelings are disturbed, u should prolly see a shrink and get it fix.
SHUT UP and quit spreading words as if u are the poorest soul around..shhhh~~

dont be a banana about it okay, alright.. message through and clear. it if aint, then prolly primary school will gladly accept u back for special english classes now, my dear


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the following will be whining about caffeine.
i turned back to coffee again.
i promised myself not to drink it after i am done w finals.
but looks like it's too early to say eh..


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i fall in love when i was in taiwan
with this

xiao long bao..how i love u..la la la

and after having affair with bun-filled with meat and soup, i decided to get greedy and fall in love again with puddings. i tasted in J-town last year. affair revived.


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can u feel the connection, my 84'ers?

x


life is a handful of cherries.
only can be tasted once popping it.
either sour or sweet.
u love it or u hate it. there is no way through about it.

talela with loves,

p/s: talela means my language of "bye bye"

waiting mode

i am back from my trip.
following tour is sure darn hard core at the ass.
literally.
most of the hours spent are on the bus bumping and swerving..
however, make some new wonderful pals
photos coming up later

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the other travel partner is still in taiwan
with a terrible sprained ankle.
thanks for buying the belt for me, hun..
hope ur ankle doesnt give u an ass time in taiwan.

x

i came back with a few surprises waiting in my inbox

a friend dropped by in the country


secondly,
i am petrified
.
..
...
.....

and

i ended his mail with what seems to worth my 6days-meals in taiwan~~

love truly,

modes ON

on artistic mode:
my favourite fr0m Tokyo based artist, RYOHEI HASE
i see love


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Dear Malaysians,
i know this is late but
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by Acne Advertising out of Stockholm

perhaps this is a better idea.
it isnt so bad, actually
eat OIL,
drink OIL,
shyt OIL

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musical mode:
88keys, recently on my favourite playlist..

he is good..sweet to da ears~
cop it when it's in store~~

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on lazy mode,
genie genie,
i wish for someone who can pack my stuff for sunday trip

direct direct direct

i met up with an old high-school friend the other day
note: it was actually her coming over to my workplace out of sudden

i "took" her in plainly with only thoughts of "maybe she misses me after so long"

but i was in for a big surprise..
she came to me to direct sell her stuff.
and it was supplement.

HAVE YOU SEEN ENEMY COACHING YOU AT YOUR OWN PLAYGROUND??
HAVE YOU SEEN STUDENT ADVISING TEACHER ON THE BEST WAY TO TEACH?!?

it took a while for it to absorb in though.
it seems like she is mocking my field.
not that i am taking things with an air.
but all i could shout after she left is "what the hell is she b/s about?"
(b/s=bullshyt)

do i look like i store strawberry farms inside my head?
and nothing else but strawberries?!?
do my 4 years look like i am helping some farmers digging potatoes?!?!
do i look like a 3 yrs ol' sucking lollis or an old woman who even forgot how to dig her nose?
i knew i was easy to pick on since once-upon a time.
but i never knew it was THAT easy..

i seriously will be better off without friends who take advantages this way.
i understand the "survival of the fittest" part..
but i still dont get the "survival by eating friends" part~~
it might take some time..
and yes,
i hate DIRECT SELL with my entire heart...

SPARE ME

not really willing to dig 'historical artifacts'.. (but if not now, when?)
she used to mock about my origin..
"helping" to spread that sarawakians still live-up on trees (ulu people, kampung area)
on my FIRST WEEK at high school..
oh yesh, i remember it well...
hahahaha..

on the other hand, i am taking a long break off


i need to get my skin allergy healed, and digestive system on full boost.
my fart smells that it woke my sister frm her slumber..
she thought my dad forgot to pay for the Indah Water and sweetest revenge will be to return what we "produced" at one go..

nagger at large

i am pro at nagging about my very own life.
and i am sure random readers do not have any sort of likings to stranger's life~
so dont bother yeah, blog-hoppers~~

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i am back from my 4days holidays
i eat
i sleep
to my content during holidays..DUH~~


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i make a drastic change to my appearance.
without thinking much of the consequences
no, i dont opt for plastic surgery, fool (note: though i MIGHT prolly need one).
and now, the consequences are nobody wants to buy drugs or seek advice from me..
worst still, i have people asking me for my elder sister..
i AM the elder sister..
must be they are too polite to tell me off that i look fugly..

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i can never get skinny...
NEVER~!~!~


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i am flying off again.
if everything goes fine,
i'll be off coming sunday
with my 2 gals

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on a weird mood
i wanna meet DJ steve aoki